satu lagi yaaaa..

And when he said he wants someone to love
I hope you know he doesn’t mean you..
And when he breaks down and makes a sound
You’ll never hear him the way I do..

…

Salah satu lagu curhat paripurna tengah malam sambil Y!M-an dulu. Iiiih gue kok galau banget sih dulu? Hahahahaha..

dulu sih begitu..

It’s a quarter after one, I’m all alone and I need you now..

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Lagi ngerjain laporan lalu aku mendadak mellow karena media player sialan muterin lagu itu. Jadi inget jaman2 Y!M-an sama Mbee gue bela2in pasang Winamp biar bisa synchronize lagu yang diputer jadi status Y!M. Y!M-annya juga jam segini, pokoknya pas doi pulang kerja atau pas shift malam di kantor deh. Yang diobrolin mana ada pentingnya, gak kayak sekarang yang dibahas kalau nggak kelakuan anak ya kelakuan orang2 di media sosial. Oh the joy of pawrenting~

BTW, masih ada yang pake Y!M nggak sih hari gini? 😀

current mood *affected by the endless rain*

There’s not enough room in this world for my pain
Signals crossed and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain
Of all my demon spirits I need you the most
I’m in love with your ghost

Indigo Girls – Ghost

Protected: sing this song for that guy, please? :)

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no, you don’t know what it’s like..

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don’t belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you’re screaming?

No, you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No, you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you’re bleeding

No, you don’t know what it’s like
When nothing feels all right
You don’t know what it’s like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I’m happy but I’m not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don’t know what it’s like, what it’s like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No, you don’t know what it’s like (What it’s like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you’re down
To feel like you’ve been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one’s there to save you
No, you don’t know what it’s like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

…

Nah. Baca tuh. Dipikir. Dirasakan. -___-“

pagi2 mellow.

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone ’cause
I can’t fight it anymore

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It’s a quarter after one
I’m all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call
But I’ve lost all control
And I need you now

And I don’t know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey
Can’t stop looking at the door
Wishing you’d come sweeping
In the way you did before

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It’s a quarter after one
I’m a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn’t call
But I’ve lost all control
And I need you now

And I don’t know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Whoa, whoa
Guess I’d rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all

It’s a quarter after one
I’m all alone
And I need you now
And I said I wouldn’t call
But I’m a little drunk
And I need you now

And I don’t know how
I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now

(Lady Antebellum ~ Need You Now)

…

salahkan playlist radio. bikin mellow aja pagi2 dari berapa hari yang lalu. duhhh. 😦

what the hell?

You say that I’m messing with your head (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
All ’cause I was making out with your friends (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Love hurts whether it’s right or wrong (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I can’t stop ’cause I’m having too much fun (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You’re on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I’ve been good but now, woah, I’m thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about
If you love me, if you hate me, you can’t save me, baby, baby
All my life I’ve been good but now, whoa, what the hell

What… what… what… What the hell?

So what if I go out on a million dates (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
You never call or listen to me anyway (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
I rather rage than sit around and wait all day (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)
Don’t get me wrong. I just need some time to play-ay (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

You’re on your knees
Begging please
Stay with me
But honestly
I just need to be a little crazy

All my life I’ve been good but now, I’m thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about
If you love me, if you hate me
You can’t save me, baby, baby
All my life I’ve been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la la la la la la la… Woah… Woah…
La la la la la la la la… Woah… Woah…

You say that I’m messing with your head
Boy, I like messing in your bed
Yeah, I am messing with your head
When I’m messing with you in bed

All my life I’ve been good but now, I’m thinking what the hell (what the hell)
All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about (I don’t care about)
All my life I’ve been good but now, I’m thinking what the hell
All I want is to mess around and I don’t really care about. (if you love me)
If you love me (no), if you hate me (no)
You can’t save me, baby, baby (if you love me)
All my life I’ve been good but now, whoa, what the hell

La la, La la la la la la, La la, La la la la la la la

(Avril Lavigne ~ What The Hell)

…

gara2 terpapar emtipi pas di paseban kemaren. haha..

from my current playlist.

Pernah kutawarkan isi hatiku
Tuk redakan setiap luka hatimu
Pernah kuungkap tuk milikimu
Kau membisu apakah itu jawabmu

Pernah kukira ini tentang cinta
Oh ternyata hanya sahabat setia
Pernah kau minta bunuh cintaku
Kau membisu takkan pernah jawabku

Reff:
Semua yang kurasakan tak mungkin dapat kuhapuskan
Walau kau bersamanya menjalinkan kisah nyata
Dan terluka…

Setiap tetes airmata
Selalu kau menangis di pelukku
Namun setiap saat kau bahagia
Selalu kau memilih bersamanya

Pernah terpikir tuk tinggalkanmu

(Club 80’s ~ Cinta dan Luka)

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ini lagu udah lama. entah berapa tahun yang lalu. tapi gue masih suka sampai sekarang. ya walaupun kalau didengarkan di saat yang kurang tepat jadi hakJLEBB! gitu.. 😀

cereoce sendirian.

iyyyyak, malam hari ini lagi2 gue gak bisa tidur. duh. udah semingguan ini tidur di atas jam 11 malam terus. tapi bangun tetap jam 5 seperti biasa, ngejar sholat subuh. alhasil di kantor merem melek deh. haha.. 😦

nah, malam hari ini ceritanya gue cereocean sama media player di laptop. top hits malam ini adalaaaaaaah.. *drumroll* lagu ini!

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job’s a joke, you’re broke, your love life’s DOA
It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear
When it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month, or even your year

but..

I’ll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you
Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you
‘Cuz you’re there for me too…

You’re still in bed at ten and work began at eight
You’ve burned your breakfast so far… things are goin’ great
Your mother warned you there’d be days like these
Oh but she didn’t tell you when the world has brought
You down to your knees that…

I’ll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you
Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you
‘Cuz you’re there for me too…

No one could ever know me
No one could ever see me
Seems you’re the only one who knows
What it’s like to be me
Someone to face the day with
Make it through all the rest with
Someone I’ll always laugh with
Even at my worst I’m best with you, yeah

It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear
When it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month,
or even your year…

I’ll be there for you
When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you
Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you
‘Cuz you’re there for me too…

I’ll be there for you
I’ll be there for you
I’ll be there for you
‘Cuz you’re there for me too…

(The Rembrandts ~ I’ll Be There for You)

lagu ini saya dedikasikan kepada semua kesayangannya saya. yang lagi terkapar sakit, yang lagi jumpalitan hati dan kerjaan, yang tadi siang pada ketemu saya dan update gosip, yang jauh di tangerang sana, yang lagi lieur hidupnya. ailapyupol.

my fave song lately.

Aku suka caramu membuatku tersenyum
Saat hari ku kelabu
Aku suka caramu tertawa riang
Saat kau datang menyambutku

Aku suka semua perhatianmu
Aku suka caramu menjaga diriku
Aku suka semuanya tentangmu

Engkau dan aku
Tercipta untuk jadi satu
Engkau dan aku
Ku kan selalu jadi milikmu

Walau waktu berputar
Cinta kita ‘kan bersinar selamanya
Aku suka semuanya tentang kamu

Aku suka caramu menahan diriku
Saat ku ‘kan pergi jauh
Aku suka caramu membuatku cemburu
Tuk dapat perhatianku

Aku suka caramu memanjakanku
Aku suka caramu meyakinkan aku
Saat aku merasa ragu

Engkau dan aku
Tercipta untuk jadi satu
Engkau dan aku
Ku ‘kan selalu jadi milikmu

Walau waktu berputar
Cinta kita ‘kan bersinar selamanya
Aku suka semuanya tentang kamu

Walau waktu berputar
Cinta kita ‘kan bersinar selamanya
Aku suka
Aku suka
Aku suka
Aku suka
Aku suka

Semuanya tentang kamu

(Abdul & The Coffee Theory ~ Aku Suka Caramu)

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yes, it reminds me of you, boy.. 🙂