spending my afternoon making another portion of instant mac and cheese. euh. dunno why i’m craving for this food so much. on monday, me ate mac and cheese as a side dish at Kenny Roger’s Roasters when i was at PI with Icha. on tuesday, i ate this food again as my breakfast. and today, i’m eating it (AGAIN) as my dinner.
i knooooow i’m eating like a pig lately. i just can’t help myself when i was looking at the huge mirror at Max Mara. i looked so sad and thin and skinny. though i still see myself as a fat woman. bleh. but seriously. i lost a little part of my cheeks. my eyes also don’t shine naughtily anymore. and oh, blush on and eye shadow doesn’t help. seriously. me need help.
i miss my bestfriends. i miss their bear-y hug without asking what the hell happened to me. i miss their silent hugs. i miss them. so much.
well, today i went to Depok to meet my polar bear brother, Andra. luckily, i met Dian, too. such a coincidence. lol. then we talked about quite many stuffs. we met one of our lecturer, eating kacang Bali and asinan mangga at her office room. gossiping. laughing. teasing each other. then i went to Andra’s kosan. hugs. talks. even i fell asleep in his room! lmao.
oh. don’t forget about me visiting Icha’s kiddos at Dexon’s kosan. they looked a bit pathetic. probably they miss their mother so much. i talked a little to them. telling them that their momma is busy working to buy their ‘milk’ (fertilizer. lol.) and all of a sudden the wind was blowing and they looked like nodding. when i left them, i said that i’m not okay so i won’t make the ambience more pathetic. i’m leaving and i promise to visit them again the next time i’m at Depok. guess i fell in love with them.
pfft. so tired today. guess i’m just going to watch some movies while finishing my project. have a nice evening, peeps! 🙂